Transition

I seem to remember someone once saying to me that I am a person who is reluctant to change. This is a fact that I fully embrace about myself. Transition has never been an easy thing for me. Not because I've ever feared it, just because it seems at times as though my life is an never ending cycle of transition and sometimes you just don't feel like making another one.

For as long as I can remember it's been "Go Here, Change This, Move There, Live Here." After so many years of chaos, upheaval, and constant change, eventually you get to a point in life where you have to make everything stop spinning long enough to try to make sense out of what is going on around you. Don't you? I mean, it would make sense right?

The thought had occurred to me this past week, after being stuck in a state of limbo, having to await phone calls from various people who needed to tell me what I was doing next or how I was supposed to move forward, that this is not a very proactive approach to obtaining peace in life. If I were to continue to allow myself to exist in an state of flux I would be doing a disservice to myself and those around me. Unfortunately, the only way to remedy said situation, involves even more changes.

Therein lies the dilemma.

Recently, I've had someone point out to me that things can't always be the same. After having time to think about that statement, I believe that maybe they were right. Since evolution is a continuing process, it is only natural that you will outgrow situations, places and people. Yes, It's hard when you wake up one day and are forced to question the very foundation of what you have built, even harder when you realize that the only way to move forward is to leave a place that you love or the people you have struggled with because of the pain and redundancy that it causes you to continue be there.

I love living in New York City and after living in different places and traveling around tha world, I know that in some way, it will always be home for me. I love the people in my life. I love the sound of cars driving over the asphalt of these city streets in the rain. I will NEVER give up my Hungry Ham membership card or the people who I live to love...

But to quote Sam Cooke, "I know a change is gonna come"

Anything that remains stagnant is destined to die a slow death. I've never been the most religious of people, but I do believe in some cases a higher spirit removes situations and people from your life in order to prepare you for the next phase of your life. It is something we all experience. Some use the expression "Let go and Let God" to describe it. Coming to terms with it however, is something completely different.

So as I prepare myself for the next phase of my life and career, I assess what is really important to me and accept the fact that transition, although uncomfortable at times, is always necessary.

Pretty insightful for a Emcee huh?